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"The Lord guides our path, we just take one step
at a time..."
Without a cash down payment and a 'sweat equity
finance deal' that was not accepted by the owner, "what next Lord?" was in our prayers...anyway, it was time
to go back to California and sort out all our thoughts..."but I was sooo sure Lord"...
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| Have a good day Big Island, see you again, maybe... |
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And so it was, a trip of a life time to some, this had
been a learning experience for us. Here, I had just been to paradise the place I had dreamed about going for years and years
and yet I personally had not fully enjoyed it, at least in the way I always thought I would. Wow, a trip to Hawaii that lay
flat like a fallen cake. Alright Lord, what is your path for us? I was so convinced that it would be like this: First, they
roll out the red carpet, give us our room for no cost, accept our offer, move their stuff so we could move in and take over,
and all would be bliss forevermore. YAH RIGHT!
When has God ever worked like that?! Not in our lives, but what He has done is always supply
our needs, even if it is 'just in time' at the last minute. So, since it wasn't at the last minute yet, everything should
feel good, but it didn't. We we're down...but not out. We landed back in Sacramento not having the answers we went for and
so the search was on for those directions.
While back in Kona we had sat in the shade and counted up the costs
of moving. We listed all our financial obligatons and the cost of shipping household stuff, our car and airline tickets. We
went over everything we could think of and put it before the Lord, "Alright Lord, if this is to be, you have to provide
the money each step of the way". It looked like a big mountain, but I knew that it was not impossible.
The first four days back were the hardest, wow they were tough. I was in continual prayer and so was Jim, we were searching
with all our hearts. I was convinced that we were to go, God had visited me that Sunday night and I knew knew knew we
were to go. There wasn't a question of 'what if', I just had that supernatural knowing that we were at the right place
at the right time and so no matter how it looked, God was in control. I knew there was a heavenly reason we were to go to
the Inn and live in Kona. Jim on the other hand was not convinced. He struggled day and night and just could not get past
the thought that none of it made any sense. The money to go was not in our hands, the Inn did not make enough money to make
it worth our while and overall it was an adventure so big that if it were to be, it HAD to be God. I am still not quite
sure how it changed for him, but on the fourth day he agreed "We are to go", as he shook his head...
Thinking later about what he went through during the latter part of August and September, this is
what he said, "It was a process like going for a walk, taking one step at a time. I would go for walks, many walks, meditating
on the Lord, listening for his voice and trying to relax. The whole process was more like talking to the Lord and
saying 'I am willing to do what you want Lord, I just need to know what you want. MaryAnn has her knowledge
and word from you, and that fact has forced me to make a decision...I don't want to feel pressure I just want to
know what you want Lord'. I worked thru alot of emotions, I felt peace and then none, then joy, and
then none. I would tell the Lord: 'Lord I don't have faith but I have HOPE, this Inn in Hawaii is the
only thing really sparking us and going on in our lives right now...there is a change I know that there is a change going
on. There seems to be no other nugget that you are leading us too. We are low on money...it sounds fun...MaryAnn
has been visited by You and spoke to me and all those things are leading me to know that You are active in our lives'.
I had the feeling He was leaving the option open, I HAD to decide, it was a decison that was very feeble and hard
to make. The bottom line was I have prayed, this is all the direction I have, I am going to take a step of faith!
We reallly could use a break ...a miracle!
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| Here we come Kailua Kona sunsets! |
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The move was moving forward!... The open house garage sale began...the whirlwind was set in motion...and there was no turning back...
Because of the immense amount of 'things' we possessed, it was extremely
obvious that we could not take everything to Hawaii with us. As we talked more about it, we came to the conclusion that it
was time for us to have a purge, a cleansing, a major Feng Shui moment in time. It was our thought that as we get rid
of the old, it would leave room for God to bring in the new, new things with new meanings. The decision felt good even though
I knew it was going to be hard, and some moments very hard. So the cleansing began...almost everything was now "FOR SALE".
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